Preggymotions ♥

Almost at the end of my second trimester! :)

I've been feeling really fantastic most days albeit having rib pains and tailbone pains (which makes me cringe when standing up from sitting!) I guess my uterus is really getting bigger than my pelvic muscles can handle! I'm trying to exercise a little more to ease the pain...but my best is not enough! Hehe

Sometimes, it becomes a battle between sleep or exercise, and sleep almost always wins! LOL

One thing that I'm really loving about second tri is feeling my baby moving a lot! And I mean a lot! In the office while sitting in a meeting, I get distracted when she kicks as if she also wants to say something. Like what most books say, she moves more at night when I'm about to sleep. I have a party-goer in the making, huh? :)

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Excuse my hairy belly! haha Hair grew that much since I was in my 3rd month! I hope it goes away after giving birth.

My hubby doesn't get home from work until 1 in the morning, so I spent the past few nights alone until I fall asleep. But the happy feeling is that I never really feel like I'm alone! I talk and sing and read stories to my baby and it's as if she's really keeping me company. :)

I guess this is the "emotional" part of my pregnancy. Sometimes, I feel so happy and glowing and "ang sarap maging buntis" but there are moments when I feel so scared of what's gonna happen in the next few months. Sometimes, I cry at night when I miss my family and even my husband.

Living far from home and going through all these pregnancy stages is not easy. There are days when I would crave food that my mom cooks, and so many times I wished "nanay is here" :( Many times I wished I have my friends back home and we can go out and eat tapsilog and porksilog at our favorite Atoy's or my little brother to buy me siopao at 711 in front of our subdivision's entrance. Or as simple as someone from home to talk to about my pregnancy. Thanks to the time difference, when I am free to talk at night, people in Pinas are probably dreaming already coz it's super late night.

As early as now, I also feel the "bad mom" fear----fear that I am not doing enough to make my child healthy inside. I fear that I am not eating well enough, or my lifestyle choices may affect my little dino, Though I'm doing my best to ensure that I get all the good stuff my baby needs (like snacking on fruits 2-3 times a day instead of my usual potato chips and soda), there are time when I still feel I am missing on some things.

I don't know if other moms can relate, or maybe I'm just having my yearly birthday blues! hehe

But God told me to be strong in Him and in the power of His might. (Ephesians 6:10) and that He is always with me (Isaiah 41:10). Whenever I think of these verses, I am assured that whatever happens, I have a God who cares for me and my baby, and who will be with me in my sadness and glory. He takes away all my fears with His gentle embrace, with His words that soothes my worried soul. Praying has helped me a lot to cope with all the emotions and physical pains I am going through. Sure, I need my family and friends back home but God reminded me that aside from them, I have Him, and He is more than enough. ♥