A Story Like Ours ♥

Last night on cable TV, they featured the movie My Amnesia Girl. The love story revolves around the female lead (Toni G) pretending to have an amnesia, so she can't remember her ex, Apollo who left her at the altar a few years back. Painful, right? But more than the plot of the movie, it also brings me to tears because it brings back memories of the most painful part of our love story. Yes, we had a rather rough start and now that we are counting a few days before we finally tie the knot, I'd like to share how our story started. ♥

James and I are indirectly connected ever since we were kids--he was my first cousin's churchmate and friend. They often visited my cousin's house and I, too, for a few times, attended their church activities. Honestly, I don't really remember how he looked like then until recently, I saw a picture of us dancing together at my cousin's 7th birthday cotillion. I don't have any clear memory of that instance, probably because I had a different childhood crush who was also there at the said party (so maybe I was looking more at him that time).

Then in God's perfect timing, we met again, now as college graduates, at an event where I never thought I'd see him--a bikini open. Yes, he was one of the candidates clad only in his swimming trunks and I was the event's host. We shared the same vehicle sponsored by the organizers on our way to the resort and that's where we said our Hi's and Hello's and "what are you doing here?". Then after a few talks, we parted ways and as the event went on, we never spoke again.

One bright and sunny day, (that's how I always start when friends ask me how we became a couple), a month after the bikini open, I saw him at our street riding his motorcycle on the way out of the subdivision. I was walking with my sister and looking for meryenda when he passed by us and I smiled at him. Newsflash though, he didn't smiled at me back. So I was like, okay, nevermind. LOL After a few minutes, for some reasons, he went back in the subdivision and passed by us, then looked at me. And of course I didn't smile at him this time, he just kept on roaming around the corner of the street where we were, seeming like he was looking for something, and then he left. (His version: He went back purposefully to see me again. (Because I'm pretty like that) LOL)

A few days after, I received a text message from my cousin who was asking me if she can give my number to James, because he was asking for it. Thinking he would just ask me about the pageant or something, I said yes and soon after, we found ourselves texting each other often.

So yeah, our friendship started through the typical text and call conversations. I would say I found the connection quite refreshing amidst my ongoing nursing board exams review and my recent breakup. He was so fun to talk to and super sipag magtext.

After a few days of talking over the phone, he asked me if I can help him with one of his medical issues, saying he needed a nurse (style). So I helped him as far as I could and that's when we started seeing each other often, not for dates, but for health consultations (LOL). That's when I really got to know him and saw that he is such an amazing person with so much energy and positivity. He was funny, very gentleman and so bolero.

We started going out not for my nursing duties but as friends. His style was always like this:

Him: "So what are you up to today?"

Me: Nothing much,Baka mag divisoria ako later.

Him: Talaga? Sakto, may pupuntahan din ako sa Manila. Gusto mo samahan na kita?

Me: (Pa cute, pakipot muna) Hmm.. Okay!

Yes, he was that kind of guy. He would bring me food, take me to movies and spend time with me like I was the only friend he has. At that time I never wondered why he would always have something to do in the same places I am scheduled to go, or why he also liked the movies I wanted to watch.All I knew was he was always ready, he got time for me and maybe he wants to be with me. ♥ (feelingera)

So I was starting to have this crazy infatuation for him, to the point that I invited him when my friends and I went out, and sometimes he would volunteer to go with me. In short, masyado na syang "pa-fall". All throughout our "dating" days we never talked about our feelings and just always followed his mantra, "just go with the flow". When my girlfriends asked me what's the score between the two of us, I always answered "we're friends, what are we?".

Now here's the sad part. The dark days started when I got injured, no, fractured, on my right foot after a motorcycle accident. I wasn't able to walk for a month and 2 weeks. Blaming himself for what happened to me, James suddenly disappeared--no texts, no calls, no visits. Yup, that painful moment when everything was going wrong and you can't do anything but stay at home and cry. The only explanation he gave me that time was he wants to fix his unfinished businesses first. Turned out, he had just gotten out of a relationship, too and the breakup was not so clear yet.

That was the time when My Amnesia Girl was being shown in Cinemas. Probably the most painful thing I can relate to in the movie was the fact that Apollo left Irene when Irene thought everything was going perfect. I, too, thought that we had a future, and subconciously maybe I was hoping that he was doing those things because he loves me already. I was bitter and sad, much more when I saw his Facebook feeds of going out with other friends, thinking that he never even remember how he made me feel. All that were running in my head were thoughts of how he only played with my feelings and never really liked me, which made me even more bitter inside. One day he was always around, the next day, he's not.

After my fracture healed and the board exam results were out, I felt better and used to not seeing him anymore. Then, out of the blue, he texted me again. I ignored his messages at first but after a few days, I texted him back, trying to prove that I wasn't affected by what he has done at all. I stayed calm and tried to sound uninterested. The next thing I knew, he was standing at our doorstep, bringing me food at work, accompanying me in my license works and making me feel important again. ---Exactly the same thing that happened in the movie. Irene pretended to have amnesia so she cant remember the pain, but Apollo did everything to win her back.

I was hesitant to give in at first because of what he did, but he explained that the only reason why he went away for a while was for me not to get hurt even more, and that because he knew I don't deserve a bad start. He ended what he needs to end and waited til everything was cleared, and came back to pursue me. And because I knew I have fallen for him even before he left me, I gave him a second chance. Crazy, right? That's love. ♥

So that's when our "official" relationship started. Like what he wanted, we started everything again, started everything right. It was only after when our feelings got deeper when I understood that he wanted the best for me, for us. He didn't want me to have the bitterness of dealing with his past forever, so he cleared the way and made sure that I have him completely, without any baggage. He felt bad, too, for the wrong things he did not just to me but to the other girls, and that's why I admired him more. I saw the conviction he has, of knowing that he was doing something which was against God's will and so he left me for a while to make it right. We resolved to always involve the Lord in our relationship and seek His ways, and He lovingly made things better for us.

I cannot say everything is perfect since then, but I can confidently say that he loves me the way a Godly man should love his partner--completely, truly and willing to give his all. Woman as I am, I had tendencies of looking into his past and feeling bad about the wrong things he did over and over again, to the point of asking for a breakup, but he remained patient with me until finally, I got over it all. Man as he is, he had issues a normal guy would have, but we both healed and matured with His help. He's no longer the guy who can't make up his mind and I'm no longer the bitter girl. We also had to face a difficult chapter called LDR (which I will write about one of these days), a chapter where we almost broke up. If not for what God has done in and for us, we would not be where we are right now. He blessed us with a union that inspires, encourages and helps us grow together.

So, continuing what he wanted at first, we are finally starting forever right in God's eyes- putting Christ at the top of an equilateral love triangle so He can always draw us closer to each other while we push to get closer to Him. ♥♥♥